From a pair of earrings I bought at my store no less. Rite Aid produced something to inspire me to design myself an outfit to go with these. So I’m going to go and sketch out the outfit and see what I can get done tonight ^^

But I’m also so so dumb. I just realized that the mistake I couldn’t find in the shawl, after two days of hiding from it not wanting to rip it back was because there was no mistake in it. I was reading the wrong line in the pattern >.< I feel this has happened because I told my friend that I hadn’t made a mistake. >.<

I’ve been a dancer all my life. Even as a baby I would dance in my car seat. These last few years have been rough on me. My body won’t let me dance anymore and even more recently knitting is starting to hurt me. I need to start taking medications for this. But it won’t fix my knees or back. I’ve been a ballerina mostly and jazz dancer after that but I’ve also done some tap, modern, swing, ballroom, even a bit of hip hop. But my favorite was Eisa. It’s a traditional Okinawan dance to the Taiko drum. I miss my Taiko drums too. They are in storage. I need to find some where to teach me Eisa again. I miss it so so much. I have a few tapes with the music but I can’t remember it all.

eisa -asatoya yunta-

I hate blogging without my pictures. I’m thinking of putting the blog on haitus until I can get a camera… HAHA I couldn’t afford one… my boyfriend and I can barely afford to feed ourselves… on the upside I’m getting my new cables from KnitPicks. I’m so exicted… though my expression probably doesn’t show it. I just got back from Bridge to Terabithia… that movie is so sad. Disney is such a cruel company.

I’ve been thinking lately about a lot of stuff. I’ve been in such a chaotic state, but this whole FlyLady thing has really helped me out. I haven’t done too much just a few babysteps and my life has been much calmer. I’ve been sleeping better and my confidence has gone up. Even my knitting has been going better. I’m still angry at Denise, but it isn’t making my go insane. I remembered something today. I’m the photo girl at my Rite Aid and I’m happiest working there then cashiering or working on the floor. Today I figured out why. When I was a little girl I always wanted to learn how they did it. Now I know. It’s not the most interesting or challenging thing in the world but it is a fun part of the job. This post is so random. I’m hoping to update the look of the blog soon. Just need to get the motivation.

I need to order the 40″ for my Options kit… too bad I don’t have money. It’s so irritating. My job doesn’t pay enough and my funds are mixed with my boyfriends and since he’s blind he can’t get a job in this damn town so he’s reliant on SSI, but they’ve been screwing him the last couple months and we’ve been scrapping to make rent let alone buy food or other neseccities so I’m not going to be funding my crafts for a bit… maybe next week when my paycheck comes in… but my hours were cut along with everyone else’s were too since we aren’t meeting budget lately since no one wants to go out in the snow. It’s so frustrating not to have money. I’m in a horrible cycle too since I want to sell crafts, but I can’t since I don’t have the time. So I could quit my job and dedicate my time to making and selling crafts, but then since my stash is only yarn right now and a bit of fleece I couldn’t make stuff fast enough to make money so I’d need a job, then I’d lose the time again. >.<  Anyway… back to knitting.

I forgot just how horribly frustrating the Denise kit is… I swear the things come apart on my Dad’s sweater a jaggilion times and it’s really setting me back. I’m sucking it up and ordering the 40″ cable for my KnitPicks Options… I adore the kit just thought I’d save some money by using the Denise… I know there are fans but I just hate the kit. I don’t want ot just throw it out though… maybe I’ll donate it to one of the thrift shops out here. I’m really hoping to be done with everything on my list soon. I have so much to do and not much time to do it… the shawl and sweater are the big projects, but I’m craving socks so I’m about to cast on the VTS from knitty. I’ve been meaning to use this project as a stash buster and an intro to sock knitting since I started to knit two summers ago and now that I’m freezing in the snow they are looking nice. I’m off to go cast on and forget about the horrors that await me in my WIPs bag.

BTW Anyone buy the KIP Bags on KnitPicks. They look like something I’ll want to invest in so I’m hoping to find some reviews on them.